Its Michaels 8 months today, which is hard to believe. I miss him so much and just cant believe that ive got no choice but to get through the days without him here in person. What id give to see him right now! My day has been ok, i spent most of it at the cemetary. Michaels headstone was put up yesterday, the cross had been there all this time but i had to take it all away last week for the placing of the headstone. I didnt realise till now how much it affected me going to the cemetary and not seeing michaels name and photo, and beautiful fresh flowers, next to his graveside. I had put so much work into taking care of everything the last 8 months and then it all had to be taken away, it felt horrible. So yesterday when i saw the headstone, as sad as it was, i actually felt relieved it would all be back now, the special place i went to to look after and honour michael. So today i went out looking for some things i needed to make it look lovely and i spent a couple of hours making it look fantastic. The headstone alone is so classy and beautiful but the added flowers and a few micheal touches makes it look amazing. Although the day has been tough, spending it at the cemetary has made it an even more special day, as i spent the day with michael, looking after him. Im going again tonight with my mum, so she can see the headstone. Not sure how the rest of the day will go....
